Am I trying hard enough?

For some reason, I find it hard to make friends in real life and my communication skills is not as good as before since I spend most of my time talking online like usual. Well, I've been trying to go out more lately which is good I guess. Laughing and talking with friends the other day made me forget about my PC and the feeling of wanting to get on just disappeared. I actually have a lot of free time since I don't participate in a lot of activities but sadly I waste it all on playing video games and searching for random things on the net instead of doing something productive.

I don't know why but I just don't seem to care about my studies and mostly fall asleep in class waiting for it to end then when a teacher says there's a test or something I get worried and can't seem to stop thinking about it. I actually have one this Wednesday for Chemistry so I guess I'm doomed. Tried to re-read the notes and I barely understand anything! Wish I had someone to study with but that's impossible since this is university and everyone is busy with their own problems. Trying to fix my bad habits right now which isn't working and when I get motivated it just usually last for a few hours. I really really need to get a new hobby lol Happy (Early) Halloween to those who celebrate it!

University life!

Hey! Almost forgot that this blog existed lol Anyway, I finally managed to drive alone after so long but only back and forth from university. I'm still not familiar with most of the roads but if I happen to get lost I'll just rely on Google Maps or something unless my phone is dead then I'm doomed ;w; The first month of university has been alright so far, not so stressful and made a few new friends. Still end up going home every time though after class ends then waste time on the PC like usual :/ Have an MIB presentation this Saturday and I've prepared nothing for it! Hopefully I can get it done by tomorrow and have the courage to present in front of people.

Oh right, a few weeks ago I went for an endoscopy and it was really unpleasant. Thought I won't feel anything since they sprayed some medicine at my throat. Feeling the tube moving around in my stomach was strangely okay and not painful at all. The worst was when they forced it in and pulled it out, never want to feel that ever again! After getting out of the room my lips were swollen, throat was painful when I swallowed (I think they accidentally cut my throat or something) and my stomach hurts. Went to the doctor 2 days ago and he said everything was okay, just needed to continue taking meds for 3 months. I'm not sure if I'm overreacting but the meds have some horrible side effects which makes me want to stop taking them. Can't wait for the day I finish everything.

The last day of Steam Summer Sale

Hey hey! Been staying up late lately due to the sales and I'm so glad it's over. I can now sleep peacefully not having to worry about good deals. Bought almost everything I wanted and I'm quite satisfied with what I got. The only painful thing is that the size of the games altogether is around 130GB which is going to take a while to download. Can't wait to try everything out! :D

I honestly don't know anymore

Recently, my head has been starting to hurt every single day and I've been trying my best to get rid of it. I have no idea what the cause is though, could it be depression? Is it even possible to be depressed without realising it? Or is my mind dying from boredom? I've been starting to think that I've done something really bad without realising and now... this is what I deserve I guess. I tried playing some video games lately and they drive me insane! Looks like it's time for me to get a new hobby now but I have no idea what lol I'm still learning Japanese but not much progress since I have a hard time remembering Kanji which is going to be a whole lot scarier later on.

I'm not sure if I should build a custom PC anymore since like I said above, I can't stand video games for some reason though it really looks fun to assemble stuff! I might go watch more videos about it later but now I'm just killing time waiting for new 'deals' which is another bad habit of mine. What to do now? I ask myself this too much everyday, way too much. The idea of driving and going out doesn't seem that appealing to me right now, tried picking up my guitar and play some music but ended up putting it back a few minutes after, loaded a bunch of random videos on YouTube but got bored fast and blah blah blah. Can someone recommend me something fun that I missed out? Would appreciate it a lot. (I don't like reading :p) Well, that's it from me! Goodbye.

Passed my driving test!

Just woke up from my afternoon nap and it feels like a dream that I passed my driving test lol For some reason I wasn't nervous at all and was like 'I'm going to fail' repeatedly in my head since I actually drove kinda fast. Now that's out of the way, all I have to do now is get a job though I have no idea where to apply at >_> I'll probably end up as a driver, sending my little brother to school and picking him up, shop for stuff etc. Oh well, at least I get to drive to places alone and probably hang out with friends more often now...?

That reminds me, it has been almost 2 weeks since I last logged in to my Steam account and it is surprisingly okay though I sometimes have the urge to get back on and play some video games :|

I'll probably get back when the counter reaches to zero? It used to be 100+ hours most of the time (I need help HAHAHA)

I still have a bad habit of buying video games from time to time though even though I have a lot already to finish. Just bought the bundle shown above and I couldn't resist since it was only for a dollar :p