Am I trying hard enough?

For some reason, I find it hard to make friends in real life and my communication skills is not as good as before since I spend most of my time talking online like usual. Well, I've been trying to go out more lately which is good I guess. Laughing and talking with friends the other day made me forget about my PC and the feeling of wanting to get on just disappeared. I actually have a lot of free time since I don't participate in a lot of activities but sadly I waste it all on playing video games and searching for random things on the net instead of doing something productive.

I don't know why but I just don't seem to care about my studies and mostly fall asleep in class waiting for it to end then when a teacher says there's a test or something I get worried and can't seem to stop thinking about it. I actually have one this Wednesday for Chemistry so I guess I'm doomed. Tried to re-read the notes and I barely understand anything! Wish I had someone to study with but that's impossible since this is university and everyone is busy with their own problems. Trying to fix my bad habits right now which isn't working and when I get motivated it just usually last for a few hours. I really really need to get a new hobby lol Happy (Early) Halloween to those who celebrate it!